psychological problems

i'm going to ask about this on sparkpeople but i've noticed a very disturbing trend: when i think about losing weight, dieting, etc, i immediately start wolfing down food - whatever i can find and in stupid amounts.

it's almost like i panic.

not good.

report - march 10/10

hour and a half out walking with dandy, which includes about 20min spent at the neighbour's so he could romp around with his new bestest fwend, maggie, a half-rottie/half-shepherd who looks like a min-pin and isn't much bigger!

foodwise, not doing bad - some cheese this morning (smoked gouda - mmm) - two slices; a mott's applesauce with pomegranate; and for lunch a bowl of meatball minestrone soup (campbell's select or something like). lots and LOTS of tea and coffee as per usual.

UGH

so i started walking the dog twice a day however long ago, works out to about 4km and an hour. my b/p has gone UP. yay me.

a few days ago, we were trudging up the really steep hill when a car came around the corner a bit too fast and a bit too close to the edge of the road (probably because upgoing/oncoming traffic tends to take the corner wide) and dandy, startled, sent me sideways onto a patch of ice. the resulting "ohshit" dance wrenched my back good.

yesterday, i took saari skating and put on my brand-new skates for the second time. for some reason, i thought it would be a great idea to land on the back of my skull.

today, i feel like CRAP.